Oct 30 2007
Autumn musings
1. Fall is here, and it’s beautiful and makes me smile to myself.
2. We’ve hit a mid point: There are only 5 weeks left to the quarter.
3. I’ve been treating MEPN as a break or pause in my real life, as though after I’ve completed the program, I will go back to my regular life. This is a detrimental way to look at my next few years, because I end up looking to the future instead of living in the present. What I need to do is embrace my everyday life now. I need to see MEPN as part of my real life. This means not thinking too far, not rushing or feeling rushed to get my NP license or Master’s, not forsaking time with my friends, and not forgetting my other interests and creative pursuits.
4. It’s going to be weird when I’m working and not surrounded by classmates. It’s even going to be sad and bittersweet. It’s going to feel a little lonely walking amidst strangers again and not running into a familiar face for days at a time.
5. When I’m an RN, Med-Surg is going to be tough without having peers who understand exactly how I’m feeling.
6. The days move so fast that it’s hard to feel like I’m really getting to know anyone, or that anyone’s getting to know me. I hope I’ll have a few close friends who will be a part of my life after MEPN.
You will make friends on your unit, wherever you work, and develop a sense of teamwork with them, too.
I feel the same way about my life being on pause while I’m in school. But honestly I don’t have time for a lot of other things that are important to me right now, so until the end of the semester, that’s just the way it is, and ‘getting through it’ is unfortunately my mindset for now.